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Sunday, January 1, 2012

Sanguine Sunday - New Years Day edition. :)

Happy New Year, everybody! I was going to post this up yesterday, but I was busy, and figured it was better to wait until today anyway so I could properly wish you all a good new year while I was at it. ;)

Things are continuing well for me, despite a few small hiccups. I'm doing better than I have in a long time, and as an added bonus, I'm actually happy! I'm feeling safe, in general, and it's really showing. Last night I kicked back on Adam's couch playing DDO and had a single drink -- with probably half a nip of vodka -- and felt no desire to get completely blind. It was lovely.

Success Stories:
I followed my plan on keeping myself as safe as possible while my support team are away.
No self harm.
Survived Christmas at my brother's place.
Continued exploring and gently pushing at my boundaries.
I spoke to my nurse about a physical concern I had, even though it was very embarassing for me.
I followed medical direction instead of pretending a problem didn't exist.
I'm giving myself the opportunity to learn how to be loved.

Gratitudes/Happy Things:
Cinnamon nuts.
Falling asleep on Adam's lap/in his arms.
Feeling safe.
Catching up with friends.
Feeling loved.

Challenge and cheer-leading statements:
It's okay to let someone love/care for me.
Exploring my boundaries as an adult says nothing about my childhood.
It's okay to say no to things I'm uncomfortable with. Nothing bad will happen because of it.
It's okay to let someone in and be vulnerable.

Take care of yourselves until next time, and may we all find our own small fences along the way.


  1. Happy new year and I hope 2012 brings you all you wish for :)

  2. pretty much all relapses start with "I had a little and that was okay... so I'll be okay to have some more"

  3. I agree with fallen in this. I respect your ability to make decisions etc., but I think having any alcohol in a year or two (or forever) is setting yourself up to fall. You might not, but most people who've been in your place and have, do.

    Up to you, but why on earth would you risk it?


  4. Happy New Year! It looks like it's starting out on a good foot. I'm proud of you, and so very happy for you! :)