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Sunday, December 19, 2010

Sanguine Saturday With A Challenge For You

It's been a pretty big week for me. I had a couple of appointments, a pair of wisdom teeth removed, then my mother went in to hospital for an angiogram and discovered she has a leaking valve which needs to be replaced. She also let me know that her kidney is "packing it in" as well.

Anyway, just before today's Sanguine Saturday post, I'd like to invite you all to join in. I want to see your successes, I want to see your grattitudes and positives! And if you have any cheerleading or challenge statements that're working for you at the moment, or that you need to work on at the moment, I want to see those too! When I write next week's Sanguine Saturday post I'd love to have a link of your happy things to share, so get writing and comment with your post's link!

Success Stories:
I went to the oral surgeon and had my remaining two wisdom teeth out. I didn't handle the situation as well as I'd hoped to, but I did survive the experience.

Next Tuesday makes a month SI free; but definitely also worth noting is that it's been a full 12 weeks since the last time I burned.

Next Tuesday makes a month sober.

I've continued to keep my cola intake down at 2-3 glasses a day, with meals.

I had my final appointment with Michele this week, and although I didn't expect it and was very sad, I'm proud of how well I coped with it. (Although, to be fair, I've been referred to another counsellor at the same place until after I move rather than removed from the service.)

I've worked really hard to "keep on trucking" and not give up on long term goals in favour of short term relief.

Was able to spend some time making cards/card-toppers for mum, and getting some craft projects done.

I actually updated my craft blog!

Gratitudes/things that make me happy:
My wonderful friends. <3
My nieces and my nephew.
Kitty snow prints!

Challenge and cheer-leading statements:
I am an okay person.
Not SIing doesn't mean I'm not allowed to hurt. It just means I'm choosing to not SI.
I'm an adult and that means I have the power to make choices over my own life.
Whatever I feel is valid, real, acceptable and okay.
Choosing to live better doesn't mean that the hurt that was there didn't really exist.

Take care of yourselves until next time, and may we all find our own small fences along the way. And don't forget to post your own version of Sanguine Saturday this week! ;)


  1. hey,

    well done, I'm soooooooo proud of you, I know you can make it to 1 month and I know you can carry on with that and make it to 2 months and longer.

    Very well done, I'm happy you went to the oral surgeon, I know you may not of liked it but you did it and you survived yay!!! *gives you a blue star*

    And for the second time, you are an amazing person to me and others (I will keep telling you this till you start to think I might be right or till you start to believe me)

    love... xx

  2. My positive is that I wrote the story of my horrible year this year in great detail to get it out for the sixth issue of By the Skin of My Teeth and it was very healing and 2011 is going to be an awesome year!

  3. My success stories:

    * As of today I am 37 days SH free.
    * I didn't cry when saying goodbye to my counsellor (I know that seems stupid, but it was a huge thing for me)
    * I have an appointment in the new year with another counsellor so that I can continue on my "Healing Journey" in a positive way.
    * Just because I'm no longer seeing M, that doesn't mean that she wasn't important and didn't teach me some amazing lessons. I can stay positive and remember all of the wonderful blessings she gave me. (I will never listen to "Amazing Grace" again without thinking of her!)

    I am grateful for:

    * Amazing and inspiring counsellors
    * Beautiful and wonderful friends
    * My sisters
    * Butterflies
    * Allerton
    * New charms for my charm bracelet
    * My 2 angels watching over me from above

    ♥ ♥ ♥ Well done with all of your achievements, I am super proud of you, and love you always! xx ♥ ♥ ♥

  4. My success stories:
    *Had an amazing job interview yesterday that went extremely well
    *I haven't been in the hospital/ER since September
    *I've been SI-free for perhaps a month or so

    I am grateful for:
    *My therapist
    *My family and friends
    *My job
    *My crazy meds
    *The wonderful support I've received through blogging and the positive impact its had in my life
    *My Happy Light
    *My dog

    ~Congrats on all of your successes and thanks for the inspiration! *hugs*

  5. I read that last affirmation as "choco doesn't really exist"

  6. Anonymous, thank you! You're very sweet. :)

    Sairs, Rhi, bpdisme, thanks for joining in with your own positives/achievements, they're all great! I hope you'll join in again this week, too. I'd love to know if you found writing/sharing them particularly helpful, too.

    Caz: o.O Wash your mouth out! Of course choco exists! In two forms! Choco-late to eat and Choco the person! :D I'm not trying to banish either of them from the world, I promise!