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Sunday, June 5, 2011

Sanguine Saturday -- the Silly O'Clock Sunday edition!

Oh man. There's one more Sanguine Saturday after today, and then I'm away! It got close very quickly! I've had some great conversations this week, with things to learn, things to learn from, some that were just really fun or soothing, and some that were just plain interesting.

Getting healthy has taken a bit of a side focus to allow me to work more heavily on getting ready for my trip -- which is, in a roundabout way, a way of getting healthier, I think. Certainly part of what building a life worth living means to me, so that's been good and important. Unfortunately alongside the business and excitement is a huge amount of fear that seems to be growing as the trip gets closer. I may have come close to this three years ago, but things are pretty different now (and being hit by a car less than a fortnight before leaving definitely added a couple of new elements of fear to this trip!) and this is closer than I got back then, anyway!

Still. I've got this. I can do it! I'm going to do it!

Success Stories:
No burning.
Four weeks sober.
Lots of tidying done!
I've been walking a bit.
I didn't cancel with my alcohol counsellor.
I negotiated with my brother to get him to take some of the stuff here in boxes (for garage sale/getting rid of) to my mother's friend's place for me to store it.
I made a To-Do list for myself for the time leading up to my holiday, and I'm doing pretty well at following it.
I worked out a selection of photos for the Ekka this year (and then I asked friends to halve the photo selection for me & used a tally system to determine which ones to enter :p).
I put in an entry form for four different categories of things this year!
I realised two things I think I like about myself! (That I'm the kind of person who enjoys meaningful discussions -- like discussing fictional constructs and whether the term fiction applies at all -- and that I'm the kind of person who can thoroughly enjoy something knowing they're not good at it.
I made this new blog layout/template for Dialectic Dichotomy as a distraction on a particularly rough night/day. (Feel free to let me know your thoughts on it!)

Gratitudes/Happy Things:
Good friends
My nieces and nephew
Pokemon on my DS (wow, can't say I ever expected *that* one to be there!)
The opportunity to learn how to like things about myself
Tidying blitzes to make it easier/less scary to tackle

Challenge and cheer-leading statements:
It is okay to ask for help. Even if I don't get it, it doesn't mean I was wrong to have asked.
It's normal to be scared about what I'm facing! It doesn't mean I'm weak or stupid. Others would be scared in my shoes, too.
Nobody cares what I weigh or if I'm pretty "enough" or anything else along those lines. My friends like me because of who I am, not for/because of those things.
It's okay to find things to like things about myself.
I can totally do this.

Don't forget to post up your own version of Sanguine Saturday (any day, any format as long as it's positive-focused!) and shoot me the link! If you're joining us in this challenge, I want to know about it. Finally, of course, don't forget to check out this week's list of Sanguine Saturday versions:
Lua of Almost Positive with Weekend Positivity
D'Arty of Living In Iowa with Auspicious Weekly Reflections
Sairs of This Lunatic Express with Positives for the week
Jennifer of magnificasti mirabilia with Holiday weekend treasure!

Take care of yourselves until next time, and may we all find our own small fences along the way.


  1. Yeah! You go, girl! I very much like the new background.

    You're doing great. Keep up the positivity :)