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Saturday, May 14, 2011

Another Sanguine Saturday

The weather is getting colder - actually, in truth, it has overnight gone from "mm, summer" to "dude, how did winter get here so fast?!" So not impressed, but glad that I have only 20 days of "official" winter this year!

Feeling pretty crap most of the time, mostly I feel like I'm spinning my wheels but staying in one spot all the time. It sucks a bit, but it will pass - all things do, eventually. ;)

Success Stories:
No burning.
The whole week sober.
I've been drinking water (sadly, this is almost as big an achievement as "no burning").
I've been getting lots of exercise - most days this week I've been for at least an hour's walk (but the majority have actually been an hour and a half or two hours).
Even though I didn't "want" to, I followed decent medical care for something.
I made it to two AA meetings.
I survived mother's day.
I survived my stepmother's birthday.
I texted someone from AA when I was having a rough time.
I faced down my panic and showed up to a meeting with the Acute Care team and managed to score myself a medication review.
I've been taking photographs again.
I did a bit of tidying in my room.
I faced my fear enough to reconnect with my ATODS counsellor.
I talked to my support worker about rearranging my time with her so that I could go to one of the local AA meetings.
When something happened that was sending crazy thoughts going through my head, I spoke to the person involved instead of just freaking out and pretending it hadn't happened/avoiding the whole thing.

(For someone who doesn't feel like they've achieved anything this week, there's a pretty big list there... Hmm.)

Gratitudes/Happy Things:
Clean stuffies!
That feeling when something you thought was going to be permanently stained comes out white as snow in a regular wash.
Knowing I finally have a proper medication review coming up.

Challenge and cheer-leading statements:
One day at a time. One moment at a time.
Nothing is forever - this will pass eventually, as long as I let it.
I can survive my feelings, however uncomfortable they are.
Making assumptions about someone's motivations doesn't lead to anything but upset.
It's okay to feel what I'm feeling, I have the emotions I do for a reason.

Don't forget to post up your own version of Sanguine Saturday (any day, any format as long as it's positive-focused!) and shoot me the link! If you're joining us in this challenge, I want to know about it. Finally, of course, don't forget to check out this week's list of Sanguine Saturday versions:
Lua of Almost Positive with Weekend Positivity
D'Arty of Living In Iowa with Auspicious Weekly Reflections
Ebullire of Reflections Upon A Brussel Sprout with Tubular Tuesday

Take care of yourselves until next time, and may we all find our own small fences along the way.


  1. As always, thanks for sharing! I wanted to let you know that I nominated you for a Versatile Blogger Award! If you're interested in accepting, check out my bog to learn how:


  2. Hi there. I heard about your Sanguine Saturday/Positives through Sairs' blog. Wanted to give you a shout out on mine. I love them. I think I want to continue to use them in my blogging!

  3. bpdisme2: Aw, thank you! I'm not sure how I feel about that award, so I don't know if I'll post it up, but thank you for nominating me! :)

    M: Hi and welcome! I'm so glad you've taken up the challenge, I hope you find it really helpful for you. It's so exciting seeing new people take it on board and give it a go! I'm looking forward to adding you to the list (although if you don't want to be on there, just give me a hoi back and let me know).