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Saturday, March 19, 2011

Sanguine Saturday Is Here Again

Happy Saturday everybody! I'm staying with some friends of mine who I don't spend nearly enough time with these days, and we're having a really good time.

Last week it was put to me that every week I manage to minimise or mitigate my own successes and cheer-leading statements. After having a look through, and a discussion with the person who made the observation, I can see ways I have done so and am going to try extra hard this week to not do that. After all, mitigating my own successes is completely the opposite of my goal in posting them!

That said, it was mentioned that some of my cheerleading statements are/seem less 'effective' than stronger ones (such as "I am very intelligent" or "I am a strong, capable woman" and this is something that has been mentioned a few times, so I thought I would take the opportunity to explain a little further why I do it this way.

The best example I can think of to use here is "I am not a bad person". I know that it is considered 'better' to avoid the use of "I am not" in favour of "I am a good person", which is a strongly positive statement. However, I find it such a struggle to use even the half way measure that attempting to use the full measure actually sends me backwards. It's about taking baby steps when you need to -- I can't eat this cake in one single bite.

Success Stories:
I haven't burned myself in 9 weeks.
I've been working towards some of my creative goals.
I am attempting to learn how to knit.
I am practising the skills I need to use to overcome some of my social anxiety type problems.
I have been working on decision making.
I asked some friends for favours!
I was able to go for a walk with my music a couple of times this week and I found some real peace in that.
I managed to put off drinking for three hours this morning.

Gratitudes/Happy Things:
Spending time with friends.
Fun games where I get to kill things! (My friend showed me Dungeon Siege this weekend and I went around exploding chickens and deer with fireballs and throwing dishes at the monsters.)
Being so completely and absolutely pants at knitting that the friend who is attempting to teach me, and I, couldn't stop laughing.
Michele is back!

Challenge and cheer-leading statements:
It really is okay to ask for things I want.
It's okay to be sad about someone leaving my life in whatever capacity.
It's not really very likely that my friends are judging me, even if it feels like it is!

Don't forget to post up your own version of Sanguine Saturday (any day, any format as long as it's positive-focused!) and shoot me the link! If you're joining us in this challenge, I want to know about it. And, of course, don't forget to check out this week's list of Sanguine Saturday versions:
Jennifer of Magnificasti Mirabilia: created
Sairs of This Lunatic Express: Positives for Friday

Take care of yourselves until next time, and may we all find our own small fences along the way.


  1. You also asked for something you found hard to word, and got it!

  2. ...chicken and deer get fireballs, but monsters only get dishes?!?

  3. The fireballs were actually less effective than the dishes (no, I don't get it either), and I couldn't kill the deer and chickens using anything but the fireballs. Apparently you don't need to kill them because they're practically scenery and they never hurt you. I figure it's better to deal with them just in case one goes rogue...

  4. I reckon you'd be awesome at dungeons and dragons and it's so much fun :)

  5. It's not really very likely that my friends are judging me, even if it feels like it is!

    I had a long talk with someone important to me about this matter this past week, and it really helped me get things in perspective -- for about an hour and a half. I think it's one of those concepts that some of us have to revisit over and over. *ahem*

    Huzzah on the knitting! You will get there, and have fun in the doing so!

  6. Hi there, just wanted to tell you that I love your blog :) I look forward to reading more. Perhaps you will join me as well...lots of strength.

  7. Once again, I'm finding strength and inspiration in your posts. Having been away from blogging and recently returning, I'm realizing how much I've missed it -- and everyone in the community. It's comforting to know that I'm not the only one going through this. Glad to hear that you got to spend some time with your friends -- I haven't done nearly enough of that lately. Since I'm just starting to blog again, I've yet to start my version of Sanguine Saturday. When I do, I'll be sure to send the link! :) *hugs*