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Saturday, June 26, 2010

Another Sanguine Saturday On The Way Past

I love Lexapro, but I hate being tired all the time. I still hope it'll pass.

In other news, only another couple of days and I'll be in Canberra! Bring on the giraffes, bring on the snow and bring on my interstate friends!

Success Stories:
I made four whole weeks self harm free. (Actually in just under 36 hours, it'll actually be five weeks. But who's counting? Oh, that's right... me!)

It's been the same length of time since I got myself drunk in my bedroom (problem drinking).

I've been making healthier choices with my eating, with my sleeping and with my activities.

I'm getting better about people touching me. Both at asking for people not to do it when I particularly don't want them to, and about letting people do it when it's not so big of an issue.

I made a phone call (to the lawyers) that I'd been avoiding.

Gratitudes List/Things that make me happy:
My trip to Canberra.
Calling Kelly to tell her what I'd achieved.
Having a friend tell me she was impressed with how well I've held myself together lately, that I could have fallen apart but instead I had "stayed strong and behaved like an adult", and that she's proud to know me.
Good friends: local, interstate and global!
Simple pleasures like hanging out my washing.
Snow snow snow snow snow! Snow!

Cheer-leading statements:
I don't have to be perfect.
It's okay to feel whatever I feel. All of it!
Whatever happens, I'll deal with it as it comes. Worrying about it won't make it any less likely to occur.
The butterfly does not make the caterpillar a lie.
I can choose to make healthy choices, and it's perfectly okay to choose the healthy option.

Take care of yourselves until next time, and may we all find our own small fences along the way.


  1. Lexapro has seriously been a Godsend for me. Yes, you should get past the sleepiness with time. Best of luck to you! :)

  2. I love that you love giraffes so much. I actually have the giraffes ready to cut on my cricut. I think the design on the cartridge is really cute. I am doing a card class today, so I will be feeling all crative this afternoon. I may get to cut it out then. I am looking forward to seeing how it turns out myself.

  3. bpdisme: I agree! Lexapro's actually *working* for me. :D I am just not a fan of the side effects, but even if they don't pass -- it's worth it!

    Sairs: Oooh, I can't wait! Hey, did you know Australia Zoo has giraffes? :D You have to pay extra to see them, though.

  4. Sounds like things are going well. I'm so impressed with your efforts and success in staying self harm free. Sounds like you're doing well in finding other ways of managing your stress and keeping yourself possitive. Way to go!