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Saturday, September 3, 2011

Sanguine Saturday

Wow, I can't believe another week's gone by already. This one's been a real challenge, but there's been some really good things to come out of it. Things are still really difficult, but I'm hanging in there.

After seeing a GP yesterday to get a referral to a psychologist and a new MH care plan, I'm back on antidepressants: the doctor was very upset that the psychiatric acute care team had told me not to bother with them because I "don't have depression". Unfortunately so far I'm having some very uncomfortable side effects -- but I think if they work, it'll be worth it, especially as the side effects should lessen over the next couple of weeks.

Success Stories:
No drinking.
To reduce my level of feeling overwhelmed, I've been keeping a loose to-do list.
I kept my appointments.
I weighed up my options and need for support against my boundaries and made a decision about which support worker to work with.
I asked for, and got, what I most needed at the doctors.
I found a way to not lose my nurse when she told me she was leaving my doctor's practice. (So much rather lose my GP than my nurse!)

Gratitudes/Happy Things:
Being back on medication
Some of my photos from my trip are better than I had thought
How I Met Your Mother

Challenge and cheer-leading statements:
Maybe instead of [interpretation], it means that I will do difficult things if I can see some good that could come out of it. (Thank you Rich!)
Wanting touch with someone, even at this point, says that I crave consolation and safety and comfort and knowing that I'm cared about. It doesn't mean I want or deserve what happened to me. (And again, thank you Rich!)
Feelings aren't facts.
It's okay for people to care about me.

Don't forget to post up your own version of Sanguine Saturday (any day, any format as long as it's positive-focused!) and shoot me the link! If you're joining us in this challenge, I want to know about it. Finally, of course, don't forget to check out this week's list of Sanguine Saturday versions:
Pixie of Cloud Illusions with What Was Not Wrong Today

Take care of yourselves until next time, and may we all find our own small fences along the way.


  1. Thanks for the tip on "shocks", I never thought of that, maybe a spoon of vegemite might work. I don't hate vegemite, don't get me wrong but I can only tolerate it in small doses. If I took a teaspoon of vegemite, it might just work to shock out the thought I am having. Awesome idea about tastes as shocks, thanks :) Oh and today I thought of you when I was in the jeweller getting my watch batter replaced. I was looking at those pandora charms while I was waiting and there was a giraffe, it was the cutest little charm there of all!
    Sarah :)

  2. I like your post today :) I see lots of good thing in it.
    Love you, friend.

  3. I'm so glad to hear that you were able to get back on medication and get a doctor to listen to you. That is great news!

    Feelings aren't facts <--that is huge.

  4. Thank you ladies. :)

    Sairs, let me know if you give it a shot how it goes? I think a spoonful of vegemite would probably actually outright kill me (*shuddering at the thought*), but if that's what'll work for you then awesome!

    That pandora charm sounds lovely, I'll have to keep my eye out. :)