Sanguine Saturday -- last one before the UK!

Wow. Wow, wow, wow, wow. Apologies for the potentially less coherent post than normal, I don't think I have been this terrified in a while, and I don't seem able to calm it down. In 16 hours I'll be on the way to the airport and I'm pretty wired right now. I think it's really important I still do my SS post, though, because a) it's one of those things that helps to keep me on the right track in general, and b) doing it means I have to slow down and think a bit in a different way, which I sorely need right now.

I'm sure I'll miss a lot of things because I can't hold my mind still enough, so I'm going to acknowledge to myself that I've had a really big week with lots of small achievements that may not even be listed. (Because I know that's true even if I can't pinpoint all of those achievements right now.)



Success Stories:
No burning -- 2.5 months it's been now, I think.
Very little wound interference, hardly any trich behaviours and NO self harm at all this week!
On the 7th I earned my first AA chip for a month sober.
I used my skills to create a relapse prevention plan (for my trip) with my alcohol counsellor.
I got my photos in to the ekka and organised everything for my dreamcatcher entry.



Gratitudes/Happy Things:
Games consoles & the games on them
Having got my room all lovely and tidy in time!
Good friends
Soft toys!




Challenge and cheer-leading statements:
Even though this feels intolerable, it's not. Even if I can't catch my breath here in this place, it's okay to stay where it is. Eventually it will pass.
Worst case scenario, I pay a little extra or I buy something when I get home. It's not the end of the world.
Things probably won't go according to the "perfect" plan -- but that's okay! Sometimes when things don't work out the way we think we want them to, something better happens down the line because of it.
Whatever happens, whatever comes, whatever whatevers, I can handle it. I will handle it.




Apologies for the lack, but no outward links today. If you've posted your own version of Sanguine Saturday or positives this past week, feel free to link to it in a comment!