I'm feeling very conflicted and very tangled up at the moment, and I'm not sure whether I 'should' be posting this... but... it is Saturday, and I need this part of my routine to stay solid.
Success Stories:
I still have not burnt.
I 'stuck it out' through one of the most difficult conversations I've ever had and I think I actually stayed involved in it, too, instead of simply withdrawing and 'acting' present.
I attempted to attend a second AA meeting.
I told my mother about my drinking.
I organised a mother's day present for myself - to have both my daughter's name and my son's name written in the sand and photographed at the To Write Their Names In The Sand blog. (Lyssi's is up but Myki's is not yet. I was going to link them but since they include surnames, I'm not comfortable doing that here.)
Gratitudes/Happy Things:
Giraffes.
Books.
That people care enough about me to be honest even when it hurts.
Challenge and cheer-leading statements:
I can't change the past but I can do what I can to make amends and make the future different.
Even good people mess up sometimes.
I can survive all of my feelings, even if the experience is very uncomfortable.
Think, don't react. (Stolen but helpful.)
Don't forget to post up your own version of Sanguine Saturday (any day, any format as long as it's positive-focused!) and shoot me the link! If you're joining us in this challenge, I want to know about it. Finally, of course, don't forget to check out this week's list of Sanguine Saturday versions:
Sairs of This Lunatic Express with Positivity for a Monday
Lua of Almost Positive with Weekend Positivity
D'Arty of Living In Iowa with Auspicious Weekly Reflections
Borderline Lil of Bowling With Borderline Lil with how many times could you have blown a kiss...
**I just realised I missed one! Sorry Sonya.
Sonya of My Verse with Great Things: Boundaries Edition
Take care of yourselves until next time, and may we all find our own small fences along the way.
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Awesome as always. I hope your struggles get better soon. It sounds like you are having a rough time of it now. Thinking of you!
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Sarah
"I 'stuck it out' through one of the most difficult conversations I've ever had and I think I actually stayed involved in it, too, instead of simply withdrawing and 'acting' present."
ReplyDeleteawesome, thank you!
"That people care enough about me to be honest even when it hurts."
exactly the perspective involved. thank you, again!
also, i said it before in another place about a different thing, but i think it's fine to be sanguine about some things while feeling conflicted and hurt and angry and whatever else about other things. life is a technicolor fingerpainting, not a black and white photo of a grid.
I'm not posting this in the best place, but can't find another way to send you my question. I want to subscribe to your blog, but want to receive updates via email. (I'm old fashioned that way :-)). Can I do that? I can't find a link.
ReplyDeleteCongrats on not burning! This one really hit home with me: "I can survive all of my feelings, even if the experience is very uncomfortable." Thanks for that - very helpful in terms of what I've been dealing with lately. It's great to see how many fellow bloggers have adopted their own versions of your Sanguine Saturday! I still need to get back on the bandwagon! *hugs* Wishing you well.
ReplyDeleteI really connected with this statement in particular: I can survive all of my feelings, even if the experience is very uncomfortable. So powerful and true. Thank you for this.
ReplyDeleteThanks ladies. Sounds like a few of us needed to remind ourselves that we can survive our emotions this week! I know it was in there because I needed to tell myself, I hope you all found that reminding yourselves that you can survive them has made it easier to bear them.
ReplyDeleteSonya, I'm not sure why *you* are thanking *me* there, but... you're welcome? ;) Also, I think I may steal "life is a technicolor fingerpainting, not a black and white photo of a grid." Thank you, and thank you for the reassurance.
Susan, I've added a "gadget" for following by email, it should be down the side - but it might be a fair way down! (And your comment sparked me into finally getting around to a FAQ page for DD, which I am in the process of writing, so thank you!)
i was thanking you for sticking with the conversation. it was brave of you, and difficult i'm sure.
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