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Saturday, May 28, 2011

Another Cold Sanguine Saturday (Oh, Hello, Winter!)

I'm struggling a lot at the moment. I'm reading peoples' blogs, but mostly not commenting because I have nothing worth hearing to add. Almost everything's fallen by the wayside this week as I attempt to pick up the pieces after my family surprised me with half an hour's notice to get ready for my father to come over. I'll get there in the end.

In better news, I'm leaving for my holiday in two weeks. There's so much I need to do before I go, which, in theory, means there's less time for rumination! And that can only be a good thing. ;)

Success Stories:
No burning
Three weeks sober
I've been trying to do the right thing about/with my grafts
I didn't use my father's visit as an excuse to wreck everything
I went in and talked to the Optus man about options with my phone (for my holiday)
I managed to get some tidying done
I managed to do some exercising
I've been doing some writing to help me process some feelings/situations
I kept my plans to meet someone for lunch and then ate in front of her!

Gratitudes/Happy Things:
Squirrels and giraffes.
Being spontaneously told I'm good at something I love doing.
In a couple of weeks I get to spend face-to-face time with some of the people I love.
Moments of random, moments of silly, moments of weird.
Knowing that I don't have to deal with too much of Winter this year since I'm going where it's Summer!

Challenge and cheer-leading statements:
What somebody chooses to do to me is not my responsibility - what I choose to do about it is.
Just because somebody rejects what I am offering doesn't mean I was wrong to offer it.
I don't have to apologise just for existing. It's okay that I am alive, it's okay that I am.
Anger is just another emotion. It's okay to feel angry.
It doesn't matter what numbers are on the scale, how many scars I have or how many mistakes I've made, I'm still a person and I still have worth.

Don't forget to post up your own version of Sanguine Saturday (any day, any format as long as it's positive-focused!) and shoot me the link! If you're joining us in this challenge, I want to know about it. Finally, of course, don't forget to check out this week's list of Sanguine Saturday versions:
Lua of Almost Positive with Weekend Positivity
Sairs of This Lunatic Express with Positive Wednesday
Sonya of My Verse with Great Things

Take care of yourselves until next time, and may we all find our own small fences along the way.


  1. I think this is the best Sanguine Saturday I've ever read.

  2. "I have nothing worth hearing to add"
    in your opinion. i mean, i'm not saying you should speak/comment when you don't feel like it, but you feeling like your thoughts aren't worth hearing is different from them being actually not worth hearing, and i think it's an important difference.

    i'm proud of you that you didn't have huge behavioral reactions to your father's visit!

  3. i just have to share, that my captcha word for that last comment was "nostakin." i felt like it was telling me not to kill vampires.

  4. f(x): <3.

    River: I spent ages crafting a response to that, all about how I agreed that there was a difference and how I'd meant it to be that I had nothing worth adding... and at the end of it I realised that I could just be turning feelings into facts in my head! So I'm deleting my argument and going back to FEELINGS AREN'T FACTS. ;) Thank you.

    Thank you on this one, too! It hasn't been easy but I did it anyway. That's still a source of, I suppose wonder, for me, in a way.

    Yes, no stakin' on my blog! It gives the wrong message entirely!