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Monday, December 26, 2011

Post-Christmas (Late) Sanguine Saturday

Well, I had inntended to post this up on Christmas day and wish you all a good one, but I was a little busier than I expected to be and wound up with no time to write a post up at all. I hope you all had a great Christmas and Boxing Day though!

Things are going well here still at the moment. I spent Christmas day with my family, and the night cuddled up with Adam (boyfriend). I'm spending most of my free time with Adam in general lately, and I'm barely at home. ;) Unfortunately this has meant not really being able to catch up with some of my friends, but the time with Adam is both enjoyable and healthy for me, so I think it does even out. And with most of my support team on holidays for the next few weeks, the less time on my own the better -- the urges to be destructive are still there (of course!) but much more easily managed when I'm out or with Adam than when I'm alone in my room.

Success Stories:
I formulated a plan for how to keep myself as well as possible while my support team are on holidays.
No self harm at all.
I worked through another example in my therapy homework and got it right.
I navigated some difficult conversations with my support team, instead of avoiding them completely.
I talked with Adam about some things that were bothering or worrying me.
I helped my mum with some of the Christmas "baking" she had to do for Christmas at my brother's place.
I got the kids' presents wrapped in time.
I've been exploring and gently pushing at my own boundaries.

Gratitudes/Happy Things:
Safe touch.
Christmas lights.
Feeling like a princess.

Challenge and cheer-leading statements:
It's okay to look after myself.
Just becaause I've always reacted in a particular way doesn't mean I have to keep reacting in that way.
It's okay to make choices about my own body, and it's okay to say no to things I'm not comfortable with.
It's okay to be vulnerable sometimes.

Take care of yourselves until next time, and may we all find our own small fences along the way.


  1. Hello lovely Chrysalis,

    Sounds like you are doing good, and love to hear about Adam. :-) I sent out some Christmas related things but am pretty sure I have not got your email address (I have a couple in the directory which I don't recognise and am a bit dubious about ;-) ) Anyhow, I am wishing you a lovely time and a very happy new year.

    Lots of love from P xxx

  2. Good for you in finding someone you can feel safe with and can confide in, it's so important isn't it? I find this with Andy too. Merry Christmas and happy boxing day, it came slow for me and then suddenly it's over for another year. Be well and safe :)